Author: nepeace
Fandom: Buffy
Pairing: Willow/Tara, the aftermath
Rating: PG
Right down to the minute …
She immediately caught my eye she was so different from the other girls in the room, back then I didn’t know what it was but now I know it where the first signs of love. She was so shy, she was gazing the floor all the time. I tried to catch her look but she avoided looking towards anyone afraid to make eye contact. She was the kind of girl that tries to disappear into a crowd. I guess that you can stand next to her and not even notice her presence in an empty room.
Her life is never the same
Sitting alone in the dark …
When we touched with our hands I felt the electricity bolting through my body, our fingers entangled into each other. The strength grew and we could move mountains if we had wanted to. We where both stunned when we found out that we had the power, and when I looked up into her eyes I felt love, through the fear I felt love. And it was so different from what I felt when I met Oz, nothing seemed to be the same anymore. It wasn’t only the magic, it was love in the purest form.
Staring into the night
Her life is never the same …
I remember the moments when nobody knew that she was my girlfriend, the silent glances across the table while we where searching for clues. We tried to sneak away whenever we could. So that we could be together,
She cries, it’s a mystery
Anybody seeing how much this is hurting me …
At tear roles down my cheek. It feels as if nobody understands what I’m going through, but deep in my heart I know that they do. They have all lost a person close to them in their own way. But then again, they never did what I did. I killed someone out of rage, I possessed the biggest black magic ever know in a human being just to kill that person that killed the one I loved. That makes me even worse that he was, my friends even had to stop me from destroying everything in this world. I didn’t know what was real and what not, I completely lost my mind and just wanted to take revenge.
It’s black magic, it’s the season of the witch
Blame the moon …
I can try to blame the killer, I can blame Tara, but in my heart I will always know that it was me. I had been consumed with magic for weeks and she begged and pleaded me to stop, she even left me when she saw that I couldn’t stop. It was black magic, black magic took over and I had no control. I lost everything around me, I could see the pain in Tara’s eyes when she broke up with me. And still I did not give up the power of the magic was to much. For the first time in my life it felt as if I was in control of everything. While I was really losing control of myself.
She cries, it’s a mystery
Anybody seeing how much this is hurting me …
And then there was nothing, nothing more then the sound of one bullet … ripping apart everything that I had ever loved. She dies in front of me, her blood covers my body as I try to resuscitate her. Nothing works she’s gone, my one reason to life is gone and all I can see is revenge. Her dead won’t be for nothing. The one who is responsible will pay even if it is the last thing I do … I don’t care anymore …I can’t stop, and now she was gone forever. I made a mistake with bringing Buffy back, I could never do that to Tara. Buffy was strong enough to overcome the issues that she had but I wasn’t so sure that Tara would make it.
It’s black magic, it’s the season of the witch
Blame the moon, blame the moon …
I did the most terrible thing that I could have done, I killed another human being. I’m nothing better then the person that killed Tara. And in the process of hunting down her killers I almost ruined the world. I almost caused an apocalypse, I would have if they weren’t there to stop me. I lost faith, hope, love and I have lost Tara, the one person that I ever cared for. What had I left to live for …
Blame the moon …
Will my life ever be as good as it was, or is this as good as it gets. It was chilly outside and I got up from the porch I slammed the door behind me and dragged myself up the stairs. I fell down on my bed and let the sleep take over wondering if I would get a dream or a nightmare while I closed my eyes …
Blame the moon …
