I guess I was about fifteen when I first found out about this thing called fanfiction, with the increase of my time online I found myself spending more and more time on websites like Fanfiction.net, livejournal and the old ‘Prophecy’ message board where I started playing RPG’s. I loved it, and I had a lot of fun. I always liked writing and well I guess I have a lot of fantasy. So I found myself challenged to write a fic. And that really is how I started to write and since than I never really stopped. Writing is a way to express myself for me, some wishes and dreams are woven into my stories. Sometimes I use real life experiences, but what’s real and what’s pure fiction is my secret.

It’s all in the subtext

Let’s be honest here. If you are bisexual or lesbian you are pretty much screwed when it comes to role models. Of course there are shows like ‘The L Word’ and ‘Lipservice’, which are lesbian shows and almost every female character is gay. But in general shows you have either characters who mention that they are gay but never act on it or never seem to be dating or in a relationship (Maggie Doyle, ER – Jorja Fox for example). It’s hard to find a true lesbian role-model in a regular show. So we search for the subtext and we dive right into it. A touch of the hands , a gaze, a smile or a caring gesture can be enough. And we write the stories we don’t see on the screen. And while not everyone might understand what we do, or might no be able to see we just want the same thing as everyone else.

Does that mean that everything is femslash?

No, I don’t ship just any two female characters. There are characters who I truly love but can’t see as gay. It’s strange how that works but not every female character can be gay in my honest opinion. For instance Kate Todd of NCIS (Sasha Alexander), I could never see her as a lesbian. While at the same them Sasha Alexander in her role as Dr. Maura Isles on Rizzoli & Isles oozes the gay like there is no tomorrow. Meanwhile ever since the first episode of NCIS I knew that Abby Sciuto (Pauley Perrette) would be a rather easy write as gay or bisexual. But there was no other female to slash her with at least not a main character, so it wasn’t until Ziva David (Coté de Pablo) and Jenny Shepard (Lauren Holly) arrived.

I have written a couple of stories that didn’t involve femslash couples, often though I have to admit, it where story-lines that wouldn’t have worked for a gay couple a good example of that would be ‘Never Quite Discussed’ (a Tony/Ziva -NCIS fic). Though I have to admit that on average these stories are one-shots or drabbles.  My longer stories are almost always femslash, I always add a warning to the heading of the story so if you are not willing to read a femslash story make sure that you read the headings.

Shipwars

I absolutely despise them, they are utterly useless and stupid. I never engage in them. It’s stupid, just let everyone like who ever they like and if that is something you don’t like just let it be. Maybe it is because I am bisexual, maybe there is a different reason but I really don’t mind reading all kinds of couples, gay and straight. If a story is good enough it can convince me to like a couple I never might have considered before. Just be open-minded.