750 words

750-words

I want to write, I need to write. I have no choice in the matter, I never had. If I don’t write I might go crazy … but at the same time I am struggling to write, If I don’t write it feels as if my head is overflowing with information and thoughts and I need to process them. I have so many ideas that I need to file them away, store them somewhere until I have time to think about them or use them.

That is the reason why I called my website ‘Internal Dialogue’, there is a constantly continuing going on in my mind and it is hard for me to stop it at any time but it can be tremendously hard when I am struggling with something. And that is one of the reasons why I am writing fanfiction. It helps me to deal with things in my personal life without actually telling people around me what’s been bothering me, Besides that I always liked to come up with stories. I recently found a scrapbook from when I was maybe 8 or 9 years old and even back then I was making up stories.

I have actually always a writing pad lying next to my bed in case I come up with something in the middle of the night so that I can write it down because over the years I have learned one thing and that is that if I have an idea and it strikes in the death of night that I am better off writing it down because then I might actually get some sleep instead of not writing it down and not sleeping either.

I am a creative person and story telling apparently is one of the ways in which I express myself. So earlier this month I by accident stumbled across this website which is named 750words.com. It is a website in which you are challenged to write 750 words each day. It doesn’t matter what you write about as long as you are writing, You can lock up your writing so no one can read them, so you could potentially use them for journaling. For each day you wrote you 750 words you get points, depending on how fast you wrote and how many distractions you had along the way you get a certain number of points added to your account. Distractions only count if they are longer then three minutes.

If you write a certain number of days in a row you receive this little cute icon as a present on your account, And crazy enough those small little icons are really encouraging. And you get a full page filled with stats. I have never seen a page quite like it but it completely analyzes you writing and picks different kinds of information and somehow creates all of these little stats to show you certain things. It compares the nature of your writing to that of the world and also checks the mood of your written piece and stuff like that. I have no idea how it works but I guess that I just like to watch what kind of stuff gets figured out once I am done with the piece of that day. It shows you a stat which tells you how much you wrote, and how fast you were. It compares that to the general pace of a writer and you can see if you are on target or way behind. I really like that part of the website, I guess that it really gives you a reason to get good results.

Here is a link to that stats page, it is the particular page which was created when I wrote this post.

This was actually the first post I wrote about a random topic, my other posts have been fanfiction. I have actually written the next four chapters of my fic ‘Some secrets are worth sharing’ on 750words. They are now at my beta and as soon as I get them back, which is hopefully very soon I will start to post them because I don’t want to keep you all waiting for too long. I am having way too much fun with this story and I am anxiously waiting to see what you all think about it.

So keep an eye open, here on my livejournal, my fanfiction.net account or my twitter.

Anyway for all of you people out there who want to write but need a little push in the back I can really recommend this website. So sign up and join meanwhile I finish this month and then next month we can start the challenge together. I am looking forward to it. :)

A month after Nano

It has been almost a month since NanoWriMo ended and since that month I haven’t been writing much but there is a reason for that. I well first off all had to work on my Secret Santa fic for NFA because I had received my assignment in September or October but still hadn’t done anything about it first because of my challenge fic ‘The Butterfly Effect and secondly because of my nano project.

Well the first fic ended half October and then it was on to the preparations for NaNo. Which buy the way I suck at.  I was so eager to start writing and normally I just do that but now I had to wait till a set time which was rather difficult. And then I had to write … Write so much each day that from week one I was consistently 10 000 words behind. Truth be told my first week of NaNo sucked because I had too much real life things which where asking, begging for my attention. I wanted to write so badly but I just really lacked the time to do so. And when IO finally had time to write I was so tired that I was blocked and wasn’t able to write as much as I wanted to write. The seconds week was better but I was still not hitting the target., No for me the switch came in the week when apparently most people struggle. Week 2 was a good week that was the week when I slowly started to catch up but week four and especially the last weekend was when I got the most writing in. It was finny because I was checking my stats and on one website it said a couple of days before the end that I would end around 20 days later at the speed I was going.  So I changed the pace and I made it. Better then I could have expected, truth be told.  However I was only in my second week when I told my mother about my progress on NaNo and I told her that that no matter if I made it or not in my mind I was already a winner because of all the things which where thrown my way during the first two weeks of NaNo.

I have not been writing in the past month, well okay I did write about 700 words, and of course my SeSa fic which is about 4000 words but that is it.

I ordered a printout from my novels first draft and from the moment I received it I have been reading through it and correcting, editing and adjusting things in it. It is a little past 50 000 words but I know that the story will be much longer once it ends. A lot longer, maybe even more then double what it is right now.

I am adding changes to it and I have a post it (different colours) system for changes that I want to make like adding scenes or moving scenes, character development things like that.

My first draft the one I am using right now is a total mess but having it in front of me and being able to read through it while making adjustments does help a lot. It made me see that there is a lot to change but it also made me see that there is a lot of good stuff in it. So far I have only completely strike through two small scenes both not more then 5 to 10 sentences. So that is a pretty good outcome. But there is a lot that I still want to add. I think that once this story is done I might even surpass the 100 000 words easily.

WINNER!!!! Yes, I did it!

Youwon

I can’t hardly believe it myself but I made it!!!

It is fucking amazing, this is a great achievement and I am so glad that I tried it. I have been so busy this past month but I also managed to write 50 000 words! And that is a lot of words, my last fic was 42 000 words and I worked on that piece three months at least! Now I did 50 000 in one month. And what is even better I didn’t use any cheats! Not one!!!

Of course I will make changes and adjustments but all in all I will be using everything that I have written in my fic once it is finished. I have written 50 000 words but I am nowhere near the end. I have a lot that I still want to write and there are still quite some scenes and chapters which I have to connect to each other. Cause right now some parts are more like scenes then a real story.

25 000 words!!!

As I said this past weekend was about catching up and surely I did. Not all the way, not by a long shot but I have done a lot of writing this weekend. And I am still on a good run so I am trying to make it. No promises but I am still trying!

And loving it by the way! :)

Catching up!

So truth be told I have been behind since I started this. It is as if everything is alligned to make me fail. I have so many things that I have to do for other people all of the sudden that I hardly have time to get to some real writing. And I will be so proud if I make it. But truth be told chances are pretty slim that I will.

No matter what happens I will not give up. I am not prepared to give up before the clock strikes midnight on the 30th of this month. So this weekend besides all the other things I have to do is about catching up. I need to make some decent numbers if I want to have any chance at making it. I want to hit 25 000 at least by the end of the weekend. Which should be a doable goal … it is not that much I am 19 000 at the moment.

Besides that I am at the moment working on three different chapters which have huge conversations between two of my characters at a time. They all have at least 5 000 words, which if you look at my word count gives you so far a pretty good view on what I have written. Three conversations and a couple of loose scenes to connect chapters in one way or another … As I have said before I have a very messy writing style nothing is where it is supposed to be and at this point hardly anything is connected. But it will be in the end I am sure of it, though I am not so sure that it will be at the end of this month. I will probably have a shit load of chapters and scenes which still have to be connected in one way or another.

It will take me longer then this month to finish the story but I want to hit at least 50 000 words by the end of the month.

I reached 10 000 words on the fifteenth, and I am close to 20 000 on the 21st which shows that I made an improvement already. I am getting there!

10 000 word shoutout!!!

I probably shouldn’t be this happy since I should have had 10 000 words at least a week ago. But I am, I have been so busy and even though I don’t want to say it out loud yet but with half of the month gone changes of me finishing in time are nihil…  zero… or well very small.

But I am still doing it and even with my freelance project of a complete logo and corporate design for papers, cards and what not. And of course the three websites for my job and my regular job to top it off. I am still here and I am still doing it.

And that is actually what kept me back last year and the year before.  I thought that I would be too busy. I am. I can’t put it any other way but the story is developing and I am getting there maybe not in the next two weeks but it will reach 50 000 words some day.

Oh yeah did I tell you about the fact that I had to rewrite two complete scenes because of significant changes in Criminal Minds. I had set a timeline in which I choose a particular moment in NCIS and in Criminal Minds as the same moment in time. So that I had a base from where I could work out my story. And then they decide to let Hotch step down and Morgan take his place a too big of a change to let it go.Because my storyline starts at the beginning of the new year.